I won’t lie, I used to be quite the loner, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Being a loner is great. Lots of time to think and create. I spend a lot of time in my own head, which can be a good, or really really bad thing.
For me, I’ve always found it hard to keep friendships going. I always felt like I was bothering people when I wanted to hang out with them. So, because of this, friends that I really cared about just kinda faded away.
I’ve also been the guy that was friends with my girlfriend’s friends. If my relationship ended, so would all my friendships. When a relationship ended for me, I was left completely alone. No one I felt that I could talk to. Zero guy friends at least. It was an incredibly hard thing to deal with.
I grew up in a house with my mum and sister, so I’ve always found it easier to open up and talk to women. I’ve never really had a bunch of guys, dudes or bros that I could hang out with.
Now, I know that the aforementioned loss of friends from an ending relationship was my doing. I could have just kept talking to them and kept the friendships going, but that seemed a little weird/ inappropriate to me.
Over the last year I’ve pushed myself to get over the feeling of bothering people and have re-connected with some old friends. It feels nice that I can finally say that I have a little group of friends that, seemingly no matter what, will remain in my life for a long time.
They’re incredibly good people. They support me, help me when I need inspiration, push me to work hard on my talents and kick my ass when I’m slacking and wasting my time.
It finally feels like I’m getting everything on track. That “something’s missing” feeling that has been lingering for years is starting to fade.
My family supports me and now my friends are right along side pushing me to achieve my goals.
Everything feels like it’s falling into place.
Time to really start pushing myself. I need to put as much faith in me as my friends and family have.
I feel like 2014 is going to be a great learning experience and 2015 is going to be one hell of a ride.